But Mostly I am Alone.

I sit in my office 9am-5pm Monday-Friday.
Sometimes I see students as they stop in with a quick no-more-than-5-minute question.
Sometimes I meet with my RA staff.
Sometimes I meet with students for a conduct hearing.
Sometimes my Assistant Hall Director is in the Office.
But mostly I am alone.

My residents are busy.
My residents are doing important things in their classes.
Some of them are working on amazing research projects.
Some of my residents work off campus.
Some of my residents work jobs in multiple locations on campus.
But mostly I am alone.

I sit in an office staring out the window watching the world pass me by - literally, because my office faces a major roadway and so I just watch cars whizzing by, but I continue to be alone. As an introvert I should revel in this. I should be running full steam ahead, but instead I struggle to stay focused. I get my work done, but it's mundane and boring. I'm challenged by transitioning to the change of pace, but am I truly being challenged as a professional?
What, other than supervision, has truly changed with my transition?
What did I want to focus on?
What was I excited for?
How do I reconnect to the passion I had?

I get that transitions are hard and change is difficult. I guess I didn't think that doing this for the fourth time was going to be as hard. Though every campus is different; every student population and culture varies slightly from the other, I should be able to handle this. I'm surrounded by hundreds of new people, but mostly I am alone. I'm in the need of a re-evaluation and recharge.

I didn't know I had a ticket on the struggle bus, but now it won't let me off!